Writing this, is remaining me to something I regretted during my tenure on a company I called accident Company. Was spending almost a year 2month, and getting nothing but lost, time, age, happiness, lovely day, friends and opportunity, and YES, I felt desperation at that time, AND let's not talk about that part any-more.
Was happening on a normal-normal day of my work day in accident company, and as usual, I felt not really energetic that morning, it's starting by going to office at 9am, and reached office around 10am, open the laptop with 4-6 new open issue mail, with 3-5 pending mail on me. the day was Monday, and it's a so-so Monday day, where people work on their lowest performance ever, open my mail randomly and having no idea what are those, but I know it's on my job desk.
Around 11am, and having nothing finished, I started to trace another trace of clue, felt desperation at that time, and plus my boss was not coming yet, but the OTHER bosses was taking a walk to check if there's something they able to do, yes, the bosses at that company, seems having their own world with no-one can interrupt, but poorly they were demanding to keep the link between the company with client GOOD!, it reached!!.
Once upon my finding a clue, I am feel like the same issue happening with no reason traceable, but having same symptom, as a good player, I will investigate what crossed in my mind(ONLYWHENIDONTKNOWNOTHING), and concerning to proved my guessing(THISONLYIABLETODO), and a open bug is visible for me, and trying to make sure it to test with a bad scenario and start to fix it. After test and test, I concluded that the issue has been fixed and should be fine after this, I let know the testing team to test base on my scenario(BASEDONMYSCENARIO) and it passed, Yeay,, till it came to production(This takes around 2 week to be processed to production) and the issue come up with no stop and I have nothing worried cause it's normal behaviour to accepting new logic implementation(this something we used to called on flight order, where the produced data was not support by new logic cause it was created before new logic created and processed after new logic implied). And I started to worried when the issue was not progressing resolve on the end of the day, It ended with investigation in our team, and found that an logic implied where I was the last updated key to that changes, I know it before the investigation start but I don't have any guts to tell the truth to my boss, during that time I was finding the fixed and proposed it, but it was to late and I ended with a warn, THEREALFAILUREOFMINE, and fixed was the day after tomorrow, and it write on my experienced albums as the worst ever.
And actually I have the same experience with my current job, as I almost killed one of main feature cause I didn't re-check by my self after counter-part researched and I am too confident with his skill, but I was lucky as I knew it before It launched and I am still able to do some tweaking to make it fully functionally.
I know its hard when you know nothing, but my concern is not to pretending don't want knowing anything, but getting real information and take any information as one of the contingency and always ask the second and the third opinion, keep try and sometimes you don't have to know that there's a way out from it cause your perceptive will change along your information growing, with it the idea will always come to people who try.
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Was happening on a normal-normal day of my work day in accident company, and as usual, I felt not really energetic that morning, it's starting by going to office at 9am, and reached office around 10am, open the laptop with 4-6 new open issue mail, with 3-5 pending mail on me. the day was Monday, and it's a so-so Monday day, where people work on their lowest performance ever, open my mail randomly and having no idea what are those, but I know it's on my job desk.
Around 11am, and having nothing finished, I started to trace another trace of clue, felt desperation at that time, and plus my boss was not coming yet, but the OTHER bosses was taking a walk to check if there's something they able to do, yes, the bosses at that company, seems having their own world with no-one can interrupt, but poorly they were demanding to keep the link between the company with client GOOD!, it reached!!.
Once upon my finding a clue, I am feel like the same issue happening with no reason traceable, but having same symptom, as a good player, I will investigate what crossed in my mind(ONLYWHENIDONTKNOWNOTHING), and concerning to proved my guessing(THISONLYIABLETODO), and a open bug is visible for me, and trying to make sure it to test with a bad scenario and start to fix it. After test and test, I concluded that the issue has been fixed and should be fine after this, I let know the testing team to test base on my scenario(BASEDONMYSCENARIO) and it passed, Yeay,, till it came to production(This takes around 2 week to be processed to production) and the issue come up with no stop and I have nothing worried cause it's normal behaviour to accepting new logic implementation(this something we used to called on flight order, where the produced data was not support by new logic cause it was created before new logic created and processed after new logic implied). And I started to worried when the issue was not progressing resolve on the end of the day, It ended with investigation in our team, and found that an logic implied where I was the last updated key to that changes, I know it before the investigation start but I don't have any guts to tell the truth to my boss, during that time I was finding the fixed and proposed it, but it was to late and I ended with a warn, THEREALFAILUREOFMINE, and fixed was the day after tomorrow, and it write on my experienced albums as the worst ever.
And actually I have the same experience with my current job, as I almost killed one of main feature cause I didn't re-check by my self after counter-part researched and I am too confident with his skill, but I was lucky as I knew it before It launched and I am still able to do some tweaking to make it fully functionally.
I know its hard when you know nothing, but my concern is not to pretending don't want knowing anything, but getting real information and take any information as one of the contingency and always ask the second and the third opinion, keep try and sometimes you don't have to know that there's a way out from it cause your perceptive will change along your information growing, with it the idea will always come to people who try.
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